An extremely good family friend died on Monday the 23rd,  Her name was Jennie.  She was such a carefree soul.
At the young age of 26 she passed away.  She was the kind of person that lifts your spirit without even trying too.
So kind, Friendly, and so much more I can list but its still hard, Doesn't feel real even tho its been almost a week.  My wife went to work on Monday and Jennie didn't show up so she figured she overslept, so she decided to swing by her place and wake her butt up.  Knock Knock  Bang Bang- No answer so she used the key she gave us went in the apartment and found her in the back room, No sign of life in her, She got her off the couch and started cpr and got ahold of the Medics.  She said Jennie was cold already but that didnt stop her from trying to save her best friend, She did cpr till the medics got there and didn't even wanna stop when the were there.  I dont know what I would have done if that was me walking in on that, I probably would have flipped and ran or something.  Anyway the medics tried to the defibrillator her and used a warm saline drip to try and help, nothing....  Well obviously you know what has happened up to this point.  I miss her she was my bestfriend and those I dont have may of anymore since Im a stay at home dad.  It still doesn't even feel real I keep hoping to wake up and think it was just a dream.  The funeral was just packed with people from the Dr's office she worked at and family ofcourse.  I meet a few of her family members before and saw them there under very shitty circumstances. I hope shes watching over us and protecting us from heaven.  Im at a loss for words.  My wife has been doing pretty good considering what all has happened.  We can always find new friends but we can never replace her.  She was a part of our family and we miss her dearly.  I hope the best for her family thru this time.  I cant really say much more right now its still just too damn hard.

We miss you so much Jennie
Love
The Family

Well over the past few days one of my good friends Tim, His mother was diagnosed with Breast cancer(about 6 months ago) Well over the past 48hrs it got really bad.  The cancer has spread to her brain(12 tumors) and has spread to one of her lymph nodes.  Ive played UsKo and other games with Tim and his family(Mainly his dad Sean, Mom Dawn)(the one with the cancer) I'm just at a loss for words on this, Ive known their family for like 7+ years now, They are like family to me. I talked with tim all last night to help him thru this, It was honestly one of the most heart wreching things that I have ever done in my life.  Now mind you Tim is 18 and he has younger siblings, I cant see Sean being a single widowed parent. 
The doc says she has 6 months to possibly 1 year to live, But the Doc is a woman and is taking this rough also and says No matter what it takes she will try her HARDEST to try and cure this, No matter what Medical Machinery  we have to use it will be done.
Some of the things that Tim said like:
Tim says:
I'm gonna go in there today and tell her how she has to get better and she has to pull through
we have to get back to playing games together as a big happy family, even if some of us aren't blood related.
I like really didn't appreciate much. like her making me food when i asked, telling me about knightonline
being my personal priest when i really needed her, even though she frustrated me because you know
whatever would happen.
and I would die to have this again.

I still want that back jay

That was just a short msn clipping of us talking.

Im just lost in a world of chaos.
Dawn is a good friend she was always around to lend an ear, Shes one of those feisty short Italian women.
Was great to have her around in the games we all played.  I pray she will be back soon to play again.

Theirs not alot more that I can really say right now, I'm still dealing with no sleep and with this whole mess we've got going on here.

Tim went to see his mother at 7am this morning and its not 1:30pm I haven't heard anything from them yet. I'm patiently waiting, praying and Hoping the best of news will reach my ears.

Whatever does happen I will update this Just so that I never ever forget how this makes me feel.
Ive lived the past few years of my life like totally numb from the meds im on, Its nice feeling real emotion again even tho this is a very crappy way to start.

One of those goofy sayings comes to mind,  The good die young.
How is it someone like murders or rapest live to 80+ rotting in jail when you have a 40 yr old woman not knowing if she will ever see the sun set again, See her future grand children, Watching her young kids grow up.  I just ... cant belive it...

Had this account for over 2 years now. Finally getting around to setting it up and Making my first post.
More post will come when I have the time and motivation. 
^^